In a couple of days I can finally say I made it ONE whole year. This past year out of high school has changed me so much. The transition from out of high school to college was a tough one. I didn’t know what I wanted, who I was, or where I was going, and truth be told I still don’t know. I never really believed it when people said “Just one year of college can change your whole perspective on life and practically everything”, but now that I’ve gotten the chance to experience it on my own, it’s true. This might sound stupid, naive, and just plain unbelievable to some people but college really did change me into someone different, and it will definitely change you. No matter if you want to or not, it will. You see college is a place where you can start off fresh, leave the old you behind, to be the person you want to be today. Although, this first year of college was a struggle for me I will never, ever go back to the person I was when I left high school. When you leave high school, you’re suppose to leave with the memories and love you created. When you do go back and visit, every once in a great while, it makes visiting all the much more meaningful and valuable.
Okay I’m never the one to say anything to anyone, not because I’m scared. It’s because what’s the point in starting drama, fighting, or holding a grudge against someone? Really though? I was always taught by my momma to act like a lady and just let things go-to be composed, but as of right now I need a place to vent, and that’s why I’m writing this post. Please someone explain to me why are people so FUCKING HEARTLESS? I really don’t under stand how people can talk shit on good friends? How people can take away a significant other from their “best friend”. I don’t understand how those people are not ashamed. I’m not writing this post to attack anyone, and I’m pretty sure many people think this post is for them. It’s NOT, I’m writing this because I believe that people need to really need to think about what they’re doing and because I’ve been holding on to this for so long that I can’t handle it anymore. I don’t know how people can sacrifice a friendship for something ridiculous. I’m not a saint, no one is we’ve all made our share of mistakes. The worst people in this world is the one who acts like the “goody goody”, the innocent ones, and the backstabbers. We all know the real you, so why do you have to put up a front? So people can like you? It makes no sense. The truth always comes out, and when it does, you won’t be able to deny the crap you’ve done and you’ll just feel ten times worse for what you’ve done.
Madly in love. It hasn’t hit me yet, but I know I’m in love. I’ve never ever felt this way about a guy before. He’s amazing, and we’ve gone through so much to get where we are. Nobody really knows the stories, they just think they do. So many people have said things and done things to break us up, but all that doesn’t matter anymore. I’m happy and in love. I hope people can respect that and just back off.
